Sick podge

Seriously am I being tested? not only 24 hours after writing my last post (even though ive only jist posted it i actually wrote it last thursday) did I become so sick I can't remember being that sick, which would put it in the category of one of the worst times I've ever been sick ever

Also one of the lowest points having both children in the bathroom while I was hurling but glad to report 3 days later I'm on the menu but boy what a nightmare that was

On the bright side I haven't eaten anything for 2 days so would of lost at least a kg right?  Well I haven't tested that theory yet but in saying that I have my appetite back and it don't want no salad - the I'm sick excuses r rolling in thick and fast

So going to give myself at least a week away from gym and I'm really going to try to not go mad in the food department, the test begins!! 

This podge is on fire

So the past two weeks I have been on fire!!  During the week I have been walking everyday - I try to find a reason to walk weather it's just taking the boys to the park or beach or even max to child care and the weather has been cracking for it too - it's been making me feel empowered and that I'm making the most of my maternity leave and the sunshine.

I've also been going to the gym at night too so needless to say I weighted myself on Wednesday and I'm at 103.9 so I've lost about 2kg being that I went back to 106 on the weekend my brother was here.

Not only have I been extremely active but food wise I've been kicking goals too hoping I stay in this mode forever!! 

No pain no podgy

It's been a busy week hence why I haven't posted for a while - where did I leave off ? Well my brother his wife and 6mth old came to stay over the weekend which was awesome, hectic, crazy, wonderful, and tiring all rolled into one - oh and diet went out the window

So then I should of jumped right back into it on Monday right ? Nooo  well I started off well, then tiredness took its hold and I gave up by the arvo - but I did learn that tiredness, leaving myself to be too hungry and boredom are my binge triggers and I need to try to avoid these triggers as much as I can and when I can't  something i need to try next time is to force myself to leave the kitchen ? Worth a try - if I'm not in the kitchen I can't eat

So feeling down and depressed, I was too meet my friend for a morning coffee and suggested we walk which was about 30mins each way but boy did it help !! The walking and a good old vent to a friend renewed my mojo and I proceeded to go to body combat that night.

Since then I've been walking in the mornings and doing my gym class at night and been keeping to the diet - and man am I sore so so sore but I'm back in the right head space thank goodness and each day I have planned a walk and a gym class - today I'm walking to the shops from maxs child care and tonight I'm doing rpm (bring on the sore fanny)

My mum is  coming to stay the night so I'll get a catch up on some sleep and housework which only helps with the podgy daily fight

It's now the end of the week and I've managed to do 4 gym classes this week eaten majority healthy which includes buying my husband KFC while I made myself a stir fry! ! Winning :)

Really want to take a moment to thank my awesome gym it's called zone and has a great crèche facility to which I wouldn't be able to do any of this without it and the great staff there

It's the weekend now so no gym but a test on how I will go food wise I have one obstacle a kids b day party today but I think I'm prepared and in the right head space soooooo. ..........

Watch this space

Good podge bad podge

You know like good cop bad cop, well yesterday I was bad cop, today good cop !! Yesterday I had a spiraling downward slope to bingville and it all started with a headache, which then lead to not going to gym, which then lead to not beinv organised for dinner, which then lead to starving hunger, which of course led to a binge session !!!

But alas once again (and the evil thoughts were there) I turned it around today and have been super good been to the gym and have a new plan

Evil thoughts wanted me to continue the binge until the weekend was over as my brother and family r coming to stay with me so there will be badness but instead I counted calories today kept to my quota and went to rpm - first rpm class in like a year !!

I'm feeling re motivated as I've Decided to try go to the gym everyday in the week at 5.30pm I've devised a plan that means I've changed ollies feeding times to Co operate with him getting a feed straight before I put him in gym crèche which means he should sleep while I'm in my class or at least be full and happy.  This means I no longer gave to rely on the husband which eliminates excuses not to go and as long as I'm organized this plan should work

This also means I am covered for my bingville days because once I'm in that mindset I cannot talk myself out of it - believe me I've tried

Surprised and not surprised

So the weekend was coming I had healthy snacks ready to go I had my contribution to the bbq a nice healthy salad.

Then I got a wonderful surprise - my little brother, his wife and my georgous neice live in Perth and as I turned up to my parents house - there they were !!  Best surprise ever

Then comes the not surprised component - everything went out the Window, the weekend was filled with food food and more food and alcohol

I was also extremely emotional this weekend because of my girl things but not using any of these as an excuse I take full responsibility for my actions and today was a new day

Let's face it stuff like this is going to happen especially to me so as long as I'm chopping away at the weight then I can relax a little. I need to stop trying to rush the process so that I can be bad on social occasions and not feel guilty about it.

Secretly weighed myself though and I'm back to 105 just have to make sure I've lost this and a little more by next week and I did start by having a protien day and went to the gym and I need to utilize the semi naked photos again,  put the visual back in my head  sooooo

Just got to keep on trucking

Proud Podge Pumping

I'm proud of me today, I could of gone on a continuous binge leading into a weekend of badness because I had a bad day yesterday. Instead I made today a fasting day since yesterday's attempt was a failure AND I went and did pump !!

It was only a 30 min class but first pump class since before i was pregnant with Ollie, im going to be hurting this weekend!!

It was also a tester as put both boys in the gym creshe for the first time and it went great. So means I can utilize this more and not have to rely on the husband as much, I'm already changing it to just two nights a week where he has to look after them and instead I'll go in the mornings with creshe for the others.

Winning

Clean slate

I've just deleted all my previous posts!! They were weighing me down, I kept looking at them knowing of all the failures I had inside them.

I deleted all my previous posts except for the first one just to remind me I have been here before and that I don't want to go back there again, so I'm giving myself a clean slate, a fresh start hopefully for the last time.

So yesterday was frustrating.  I had a few hurdles, I started off well, I was making yesterday a fasting day and was on track. I had just done grocery shopping and was making this noodle soup but I bought the wrong noodles and it was just wrong. This then lead me to snack cos I wasn't satisfied which led me to binge because I allowed myself the excuse ive got my girl things so I can give myself one day.

Then my husband was late getting home which then gave me the excuse not to go to gym and what should of been a day where I burned more calories than I consumed it was the opposite

But reality is this is going to happen, my day to day life can change quickly with a 4 year old and a 6 week old and what I realized yesterday is that I need to slow it down stop trying to lose too much too soon and tomorrow is another day which just happens to be today

So today I'm back on track and making up for yesterday so today is fasting day and I'm going to do a 30 min pump class and try ollie in the gym creshe for the first time

I can have my cake and eat it too

Weigh in Wednesday

I lost 1 kg !! That is all

As if that's it lol, good day, my little ollie had his first shots today and he was good as gold, my little trouper.  I have been good food wise. Little bit more snacky today, im looking to have a pre workout snack as I don't eat dinner until I have finished gym which is at 9 pm so it's extra calories. Yesterday I had grilled fish and that worked well but can't see myself grilling fish everyday so thinking of a protien bar below 100 calories.

I definitely need to make sure I have milk especially after dinner as tonight I couldn't have my usual no sugar hot choc because I've run out of milk so I was looking for something and ended up eating some cooking choc (desperado)!! The hot choc definitely curbs this craving (ive had all my life) to have something sweet after dinner and the milk fills me up so I don't look for anything for the rest of the night.

I also gave myself the excuse ive just done a gym class (body combat) burnt 450 calories, and that I'm having a fasting  day tomorrow, so i can have this bit of chocolate right ? WRONG podge
, i don't want to fall into this trap I'd rather still be in my allowable calories no matter what I've done or going to do.

So yeah im having a fasting day tomorrow eek

Dancing the podge away

My first night back at gym and it was great!! I did a jam class (which is like a dance class) and I did good, burnt 500 calories, better than I thought, and it felt great to be back, it made me feel empowered, that's until the pain sets in!!

Been a good girl today, I had lunch with some girlfriends and I opted for a beetroot salad which I enjoyed. I haven't snacked much at all today which has made a big difference to my calorie count but in saying that I haven't been hungry as much as I usually am hmmmmm.

This could be because of two things, my fasting day has made a dent in my appetite (not likely) or I'm going to get my girl things which means this is just the calm before the storm!! And being my first girl things since the birth of my son it's most likely going to be a doosie.  So this means I need to work hard over the next few days so that if I crash then I'm covered but  going to try my hardest not to.

Watched a show tonight of 5 woman getting style makeovers and it made me think of the clothes I can't wait to wear - all helps with the motivation at the moment which is at an all time high, those podgy images are still clear in my mind.

Also need to think of a low calorie midnight snack as when I'm up at the wee hours feeding ollie I do look for food- it helps wake me up.  I don't want a coffee at that time as I want to go back to sleep asap so need too think of something that's easy to grab - any suggestions?