Thursday, January 8, 2015

10 days no sugar no salt challenge

So yesterday I had a binge session - so disappointed in myself but today is a new day and I'm ready to give it 100% I've got strawberries and egg whites at the ready for the hard times but I'm not giving in to the sugar or salt cravings for the next 10 days, I'm giving myself the opportunity to ween myself from its grasp and to let it go for real this time

Feeling motivated 

I'm also going to try before dinner to go to the ovals weather permitting or treadmill if not and do the learn to run 5k app 

Bring it on podge

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

96 days to

So I'm finally at 100kgs after 4 months since I had ollie I've lost 7kgs some on my own - I put some back on and lost again.  The rapid loss challenge so far is working but it's hard and a daily struggle.

Over Christmas I had a week basically of eating what ever I wanted then on the 30th of dec I went straight back to the challenge. I put on 1.4kgs over Christmas and to this date I've lost 3kgs but to be honest, I'm only giving it 95% 

5% is still snacking, although small, a few nuts here a bite of a chip there I still haven't let go of the salt and the sugar I struggle with it everyday and now that I've started exercising the hunger after exercising is really overwhelming that the excuses start rolling in of,I've just burnt so many calories I deserve this mini cherry ripe...... Right

Deep down I know I have to let go of the snacking as its my biggest downfall, it leads me to make excuses, it leads me to binge eat, then what next give up? 

Uh no not this time I declared this on Facebook and it ain't real till its on Facebook 

So I'm giving myself this week to continue with the exercising and to allow myself of healthy snacking only I.e strawberries, egg whites etc very low calorie no more sugar no more salt if I don't ween myself of these now I never will know a life without them and this is what I need to experience so that I can see that I don't need it to begin with so that I'm in this for the long run as once I lose it I still have to maintain it 

Then hopefully once my body is more used to the exercising and I've eliminated my sugar/salt craving I can stop the extra snacking then I can truly say I'm giving it 100% 

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Rapid loss challenge

I've done it, I'm doing it, I'm doing the rapid loss challenge!!

What is this ? So unlike me to get sucked into a challenge hey, well it all started when I went out for a work dinner for my husband - all dressed up (I even wore small heels ) I felt good that was until I seen photos of myself - awful, horrendous, embarrassed

So I had seen the rapid loss challenge on TV and was planning on giving it a go (I may have mentioned it, I can't remember) anyway so this just sealed the deal, drastic action was needed

I haven't gone into this without thinking or knowing what I'm like, so I trialed it - I started the very next day after that blasted dinner and I've been on it for 11 days now have lost 2.5kgs and although it's the WORST time of the year to do this, 2 days ago I signed the deal, I joined the challenge for real - name, digits and...... horrendous photo.

But I figure it's now or never and I've already done the hard yards being getting thru the first week. I can't go back to that and start again, I just won't do it, I know it, so I have to keep going now, and I'm in this incredible head space that just knows I'm going to do this.

So excluding Xmas day and the 28th (family xmas)  I am committed to this challenge, I have 16 weeks or 109 days as of today to lose as much as possible, I want to lose at least 30kgs but I'm aiming for 35, there is prizes and money to be won and I won't lie wouldn't that be a awesome bonus, but I'm not holding my breath.

My main motivation is I'm going back to work in march and I want to walk through those doors a skinny bitch, because once I go back to work shits going to get only harder

I've even announced it on Facebook!! And shit ain't real till you put it on Facebook ;)

Sunday, December 7, 2014

The podge is winning

So I'm at the end of one of my downers that's been on going for two weeks eating whatever mindless eating and I'm in a rut I know why I'm sick of it I'm over working my ass off for little results it's in the too hard basket atm motivation the lowest

So I needed a new plan and I needed it fast something catches my eye it's a challenge it's a challenge where u can win money it's shakes

I know

But knowing it's not the answer and it's not going to last it's drastic action which I need right now and if anything it will get me back on track drastic action

It's called rapid loss and the name says it all the challenge is 16 weeks and you can win money but I'll not hold my breath for that even though that would be a bonus

I guess the justification is that first two weeks is meal replacement then you can reduce it to snacks but being my timing is that it's Xmas day in exactly two weeks I'm thinking I'll be doing the two weeks again

Any hoo wish me luck!!

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Gym crèche bitches

TI love my gym

And if it wasn't for its crèche facility I wouldn't go at all to tell you the truth. The crèche is the key to me being able to go everyday without having to rely on husband.

So I battled at first with taking Ollie because he was so young but it's also another reason why I take him now - he's in that easy stage where he just eats sleeps and poos so now is my Window of opportunity to try to lose as much as I can before the teething and constant need for entertainment sets in and before I have to go back to work - he doesn't know any different and it's for 1 hour tops.

So yesterday I was testing him out on a 10.30am class but I made the mistake of forgetting his dodo aka dummy which he doesn't always take away but helps to settle him and he was a bit grumpy when I got there but these were my words to the crèche carers. ....

I forgot his do do I'm so sorry but if you push him in the pram for a bit he might go to sleep - if not then you can feed him as he's due in about 45mins and if all else fails just come and get me

So they say no problem and off I go to my pump class

So imagine my surprise when I got back and they were like glaring at me - rocking my upset child in his pram they then proceeded to bully me into feeling bad by saying perhaps I shouldn't do classes and that he's always like this (which he's not I seriously have an angel child) so I say did you feed him?

Ah no they didn't - hello then he's fucking hungry which is reasonable to assume he's going to be upset if you don't feed him !!

I was furious

So I had a little rant to my cousin (who goes to the same gym and uses the same crèche) and after calming down I even found myself defending them as she wants me to give feedback to the gym, and my fear of confrontation.

My dilemma is a selfish one.  I don't want to screw with the woman who look after my kids so that I can still go to the gym - what if they are mean to them because I got them In trouble ? Who will know?  they are in a room separate to the gym it's not got cameras so how would I know -

So although I promised my cousin I would write an email and I rarely go back on promises I want to give them a second chance and if they piss me off again then that's it I'll unleash but for now I choose to avoid them lol

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Podgy burning machine

Since my last depressing post about my big fat failure I'm happy to say I'm back!! Back in the podgy burning game - the head space is switched on and I've somehow managed to burn nearly 2kgs in 2 days !! This brings me back to my original loss weight of 103.1kgs and it's like the failure never happened lol (it's okay I'm not in denial I owned my failure)

So how have I done this you say ? Well I have literally worked my ass off and have eaten very little - Monday I had a protein day but still walked for an hour and did rpm - rpm is what switched the trigger in my head to get me back in the game.
Yesterday I did combat, went out for lunch but only had a salad then did another hour walk in the evening and didn't end up having dinner - I seriously wasn't hungry though so no point wasting calories right ;)

My goal is to get to the 100kgs mark before my dirty anniversary weekend away which is in exactly 10 days so I'm super focused on this and feel like it's achievable

From then on ...well watch this space