Rapid loss challenge

I've done it, I'm doing it, I'm doing the rapid loss challenge!!

What is this ? So unlike me to get sucked into a challenge hey, well it all started when I went out for a work dinner for my husband - all dressed up (I even wore small heels ) I felt good that was until I seen photos of myself - awful, horrendous, embarrassed

So I had seen the rapid loss challenge on TV and was planning on giving it a go (I may have mentioned it, I can't remember) anyway so this just sealed the deal, drastic action was needed

I haven't gone into this without thinking or knowing what I'm like, so I trialed it - I started the very next day after that blasted dinner and I've been on it for 11 days now have lost 2.5kgs and although it's the WORST time of the year to do this, 2 days ago I signed the deal, I joined the challenge for real - name, digits and...... horrendous photo.

But I figure it's now or never and I've already done the hard yards being getting thru the first week. I can't go back to that and start again, I just won't do it, I know it, so I have to keep going now, and I'm in this incredible head space that just knows I'm going to do this.

So excluding Xmas day and the 28th (family xmas)  I am committed to this challenge, I have 16 weeks or 109 days as of today to lose as much as possible, I want to lose at least 30kgs but I'm aiming for 35, there is prizes and money to be won and I won't lie wouldn't that be a awesome bonus, but I'm not holding my breath.

My main motivation is I'm going back to work in march and I want to walk through those doors a skinny bitch, because once I go back to work shits going to get only harder

I've even announced it on Facebook!! And shit ain't real till you put it on Facebook ;)

The podge is winning

So I'm at the end of one of my downers that's been on going for two weeks eating whatever mindless eating and I'm in a rut I know why I'm sick of it I'm over working my ass off for little results it's in the too hard basket atm motivation the lowest

So I needed a new plan and I needed it fast something catches my eye it's a challenge it's a challenge where u can win money it's shakes

I know

But knowing it's not the answer and it's not going to last it's drastic action which I need right now and if anything it will get me back on track drastic action

It's called rapid loss and the name says it all the challenge is 16 weeks and you can win money but I'll not hold my breath for that even though that would be a bonus

I guess the justification is that first two weeks is meal replacement then you can reduce it to snacks but being my timing is that it's Xmas day in exactly two weeks I'm thinking I'll be doing the two weeks again

Any hoo wish me luck!!

Gym crèche bitches

TI love my gym

And if it wasn't for its crèche facility I wouldn't go at all to tell you the truth. The crèche is the key to me being able to go everyday without having to rely on husband.

So I battled at first with taking Ollie because he was so young but it's also another reason why I take him now - he's in that easy stage where he just eats sleeps and poos so now is my Window of opportunity to try to lose as much as I can before the teething and constant need for entertainment sets in and before I have to go back to work - he doesn't know any different and it's for 1 hour tops.

So yesterday I was testing him out on a 10.30am class but I made the mistake of forgetting his dodo aka dummy which he doesn't always take away but helps to settle him and he was a bit grumpy when I got there but these were my words to the crèche carers. ....

I forgot his do do I'm so sorry but if you push him in the pram for a bit he might go to sleep - if not then you can feed him as he's due in about 45mins and if all else fails just come and get me

So they say no problem and off I go to my pump class

So imagine my surprise when I got back and they were like glaring at me - rocking my upset child in his pram they then proceeded to bully me into feeling bad by saying perhaps I shouldn't do classes and that he's always like this (which he's not I seriously have an angel child) so I say did you feed him?

Ah no they didn't - hello then he's fucking hungry which is reasonable to assume he's going to be upset if you don't feed him !!

I was furious

So I had a little rant to my cousin (who goes to the same gym and uses the same crèche) and after calming down I even found myself defending them as she wants me to give feedback to the gym, and my fear of confrontation.

My dilemma is a selfish one.  I don't want to screw with the woman who look after my kids so that I can still go to the gym - what if they are mean to them because I got them In trouble ? Who will know?  they are in a room separate to the gym it's not got cameras so how would I know -

So although I promised my cousin I would write an email and I rarely go back on promises I want to give them a second chance and if they piss me off again then that's it I'll unleash but for now I choose to avoid them lol

Podgy burning machine

Since my last depressing post about my big fat failure I'm happy to say I'm back!! Back in the podgy burning game - the head space is switched on and I've somehow managed to burn nearly 2kgs in 2 days !! This brings me back to my original loss weight of 103.1kgs and it's like the failure never happened lol (it's okay I'm not in denial I owned my failure)

So how have I done this you say ? Well I have literally worked my ass off and have eaten very little - Monday I had a protein day but still walked for an hour and did rpm - rpm is what switched the trigger in my head to get me back in the game.
Yesterday I did combat, went out for lunch but only had a salad then did another hour walk in the evening and didn't end up having dinner - I seriously wasn't hungry though so no point wasting calories right ;)

My goal is to get to the 100kgs mark before my dirty anniversary weekend away which is in exactly 10 days so I'm super focused on this and feel like it's achievable

From then on ...well watch this space

My big fat fail

I was in the best head space -like I'm talking, walking and going to the gym and keeping to 1200 calories eating healthy and wanting too - my every though was how I could lose more, exercise more and then BOOM

I got sick

Like really sick, most sick I've been in a long long time

And since then my head space has turned to shit and I cannot get it back!!

It was like I was being tested and I failed big time

So it's been two weeks since I was sick and today (which just happens to be a monday of course) I'm starting again

Starting again after eating all the badness you could think off, this included a Chinese this included hungry jacks and even a KFC t- countless mindless snacking on anything I could get my hands on and very minimum exercise

On the bright side I did do some exercise still and I did throw in a few healthy meals and snacks but I'm pretty sure the bad out weighed the good

I haven't yet weighed myself I'm too scared of the damage I've done - I was 103.7 I think

I'll go weigh myself right now even though I've had a coffee it's time to take accountability

Okay it's bad I'm basically back to where I started 105.2 I'm such an idiot

Ive given myself a minute to kick myself and feel sorry for myself but there is no point dwelling on what's been done I have to move forward I have to try again I cannot and will not stay at this weight for the rest of my life

New plan - protein day today and I'm taking my boys to the park for a walk and to feed the Ducks and if my husband gets home in time I'll go to the gym later on today - not buying any more crap for this house my boys will just have to go without

Here I go again

Sick podge

Seriously am I being tested? not only 24 hours after writing my last post (even though ive only jist posted it i actually wrote it last thursday) did I become so sick I can't remember being that sick, which would put it in the category of one of the worst times I've ever been sick ever

Also one of the lowest points having both children in the bathroom while I was hurling but glad to report 3 days later I'm on the menu but boy what a nightmare that was

On the bright side I haven't eaten anything for 2 days so would of lost at least a kg right?  Well I haven't tested that theory yet but in saying that I have my appetite back and it don't want no salad - the I'm sick excuses r rolling in thick and fast

So going to give myself at least a week away from gym and I'm really going to try to not go mad in the food department, the test begins!! 

This podge is on fire

So the past two weeks I have been on fire!!  During the week I have been walking everyday - I try to find a reason to walk weather it's just taking the boys to the park or beach or even max to child care and the weather has been cracking for it too - it's been making me feel empowered and that I'm making the most of my maternity leave and the sunshine.

I've also been going to the gym at night too so needless to say I weighted myself on Wednesday and I'm at 103.9 so I've lost about 2kg being that I went back to 106 on the weekend my brother was here.

Not only have I been extremely active but food wise I've been kicking goals too hoping I stay in this mode forever!!